Matzo Men

I think it speaks for itself. I was going to include my synagogue's rendition of the hokie pokie, known as the matzo motzi, but i figured this would be more enjoyable...

College fair worried me quite a bit. I read in a pamphlet for Beloit, I think, or perhaps Lawrence, that (and this is based off of my memory) "1/3 of our classes - from cooking to language to chemistry - have an international focus." Chemistry has an international focus? When did science become about culture?

I also saw in the Cornell U. presentation an interesting little slogan: "Elite. Not elitist." I think it mostly speaks for itself. What ridiculous bullshit. Whatever happened to applauding achievement and not being scared to say that competence is valued over incompetence? Not to mention the inherent contradiction in saying you simultaneously are composed of only the best and don't only take the best.

Also Cornell-related was a weird little section in the pamphlet that said scholarships are awarded based on need alone. Merit scholarships have been eliminated. Dad says this is happening at a lot of big schools. Everyone says Atlas Shrugged is bullshit but tell me that isn't the whole point of it! Need alone? Where do these people's priorities lie?

What the hell is happening to this country?

Some spare thoughts

What if Heaven/Hell is purely mental? What is time or conciousness in the context of sleep or near death? To what extent can the brain extend a moment's time?

Ever heard anyone explain something that was a close call by saying that time 'slowed' down? That would mean the brain speeds up to make each second more productive and hence the feeling of time slowing down.

Most research shows that DMT (Dimethyltryptamine), a drug our own bodies synthesize, is released when we die. DMT and your brain may very well be your 'after life'. Maybe your mind is God.

Perhaps those that believe in Heaven/Hell create their own end. If they feel free of guilt then they are creating their own Heaven. That would explain the role of repentance -- to remove self guilt and responsibility of action. Those that feel they have done some mortal sin and do not repent to clear their concious are creating their own Hell.

The end of Heaven/Hell, because it must end, the brain cannot extend time indefinetly, is not important. The mere entrace into either state would mean total illusion of time, place, and death, which would transfer all thought of being, to making Heaven/Hell real. Along with this would come the illusion of eternity and that is the most important part--especially to Hell. Mental anguish is one of the most powerful tools humans have created. To know you are dying and in pain, and to think you will be forever, is the epitome of Hell, making the specific amount of time spent there, unimportant. This is also true of Heaven. The initial glee of being in a perfect place, where only happiness exists is important. Largely happiness is mental; if your brain now believes that you will be experiencing euphoria forever, the ultimate amount of time is insignificant.

Just a few random thoughts during class.

Not that I'm advertising or anything, but...

So.
You know what you should do tonight?

You should come see "Little Shop of Horrors" at 7:30 tonight, or check out one of the 6 other shows this weekend, Tuesday, and next weekend.

Because it will be amazing.

Oh. And if you want to make me REALLY happy (or just point and laugh at me), you should come on the 20th, the 22nd, or the 26th (that's this Sunday, Tuesday, and next Saturday).

Why, you ask? Well, I'll be singing, talking to a plant, and wearing a curly blond wig. Let's just leave it at that.

Come on. You know you want to check it out (plus, it's only $5).

Disconcerting

It's 6:33 pm. Why hasn't the sun started setting yet? What is this blue sky doing in place of a slowly darkening, potentially gray one? Could it possibly mean that spring is FINALLY here, mid-April? Oh goodness, I really hope so.

Used.

The yellowed plastic refrigerator had visited the world through magnets from famous cities. The insides of the box sheltered nourishment and whirred each hour. A faithful soldier. The outside was used over and over again as a trophy box. A perfect place to hang up A+ grades and awards…

But now it just sits there.
Blank, bare, and unloved.

WARM.

Oh man.
It is definitely supposed to get up to almost 70 degrees on Wednesday.
SPRING!!!!
I have so been looking forward to skirts and capris and no sweatshirts.
And grass and sun and people and just laying outside and enjoying the weather.
Oh lord, I really hope it stays this time.